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𝒇𝒂𝒅𝒆 𝒓𝒊𝒇𝒕 𝒊𝒏𝒃𝒐𝒙
SENDING CRYSTAL
PASSING NOTES
IN PERSON
PASSING NOTES
IN PERSON
He hesitates a little too long. Reading his mind and what he broadly chooses to think on the surface, it’s a different game entirely from letting her use his actual physical senses, peering out through his eyes like a mask. A more thorough puppeteering. A surrendering of control.
But they’re trying to get back to normal, back to these psychic exercises and the trust they imply, and so Stephen eventually nods, and Ness feels the metaphorical door open.
But they’re trying to get back to normal, back to these psychic exercises and the trust they imply, and so Stephen eventually nods, and Ness feels the metaphorical door open.
He hesitates, and so she hesitates too, her smile slowly slipping as she realizes she's overstepped. Even after he nods and opens the door for her, it takes a moment for her to decide what to do. When Ness finally does slip into his thoughts, it's more gentle than usual, a polite and unobtrusive slink into the back of the room.
She's not puppeteering him—though she could, maybe, for a few minutes at least. There's a lot she could do, she thinks, levers she could pull and switches she could press—but that's not what she's here for. Seeing through Stephen's eyes isn't quite the right way to describe it—she's not hijacking his senses, more seeing what he sees like it's a moving portrait, filtered by his thoughts and impressions and focus.
Her stump through his eyes is... well, it's about as unsightly as it had seemed from her less than ideal vantage point. The scar is only just starting to settle in, raised and intense as the skin knits back together—not inflamed, though, not swollen or miscoloured. As far as she can interpret, it looks as healthy as they could hope for, and Stephen doesn't seem to see anything he didn't expect.
"Can you," she speaks out loud, it seeming more polite, then pauses, pulling her thoughts together. "Can you think more... purposefully? About what you see, from your professional perspective."
She's not puppeteering him—though she could, maybe, for a few minutes at least. There's a lot she could do, she thinks, levers she could pull and switches she could press—but that's not what she's here for. Seeing through Stephen's eyes isn't quite the right way to describe it—she's not hijacking his senses, more seeing what he sees like it's a moving portrait, filtered by his thoughts and impressions and focus.
Her stump through his eyes is... well, it's about as unsightly as it had seemed from her less than ideal vantage point. The scar is only just starting to settle in, raised and intense as the skin knits back together—not inflamed, though, not swollen or miscoloured. As far as she can interpret, it looks as healthy as they could hope for, and Stephen doesn't seem to see anything he didn't expect.
"Can you," she speaks out loud, it seeming more polite, then pauses, pulling her thoughts together. "Can you think more... purposefully? About what you see, from your professional perspective."
“You’re sure you don’t just want me to say it aloud? Seems like it’d be easier,” Stephen says, bemused, but then gamely swivels in his chair and focuses more on the stump rather than her face. Directs all his attention back to it, thinking more purposefully, a conscious internal narration rather than vague background murmur.
A lot of the train of thought defaults back to clean, clinical medical jargon, dense and impenetrable; but seen through his mind, she can glimpse the real meaning of it. It’s healing well. Scarification and wound sealing and limb shrinkage all within normal parameters. Still not ready for the prosthetic, but on track —
(and most importantly, not plummeting her straight to death’s doorstep anymore)
A lot of the train of thought defaults back to clean, clinical medical jargon, dense and impenetrable; but seen through his mind, she can glimpse the real meaning of it. It’s healing well. Scarification and wound sealing and limb shrinkage all within normal parameters. Still not ready for the prosthetic, but on track —
(and most importantly, not plummeting her straight to death’s doorstep anymore)
It makes sense to assume a verbal explanation would be easier to follow, and Ness doesn't know how to explain to Stephen that it's not, necessarily. Yes, the medical jargon is opaque, and it's strange to see herself as a collection of medical data and not a person–but seeing it through the filter of his thoughts and understanding offers comprehension she's never had the education to attain for herself. He thinks the words and she knows what they mean because he knows, which is fascinating and cool and Ness doesn't want to retreat–
But the spell only lasts so long before she'd have to cast it again, and Stephen was hesitant enough to allow her in to begin with; she won't overstay her welcome. Her eyes re-focus as their violet glow fades, and she offers an excited smile.
"That was fascinating–I understood it all when I was reading your thoughts, but now that I'm out I only know as much as I did before, I just know that you thought it looked alright. The implications–"
Hang on–Ness trails off, smile fading as she thinks better of the commentary. Perhaps by reading his mind she could help with procedures, treatments where Stephen could use a third hand... but perhaps also it could be strange to have his knowledge co-opted so completely in that way. Besides, her remaining hand won't be much more effective than his own, no matter how adept she's forced to get with it.
So. A different topic, then.
"What happened to me?" It's no less fraught a subject, but in light of what he thought about death's door, it's the one that's most top-of-mind. "That is, I know that the site became infected. Was it that? An infection that grew out of control? I can't remember much after I first returned to the infirmary."
But the spell only lasts so long before she'd have to cast it again, and Stephen was hesitant enough to allow her in to begin with; she won't overstay her welcome. Her eyes re-focus as their violet glow fades, and she offers an excited smile.
"That was fascinating–I understood it all when I was reading your thoughts, but now that I'm out I only know as much as I did before, I just know that you thought it looked alright. The implications–"
Hang on–Ness trails off, smile fading as she thinks better of the commentary. Perhaps by reading his mind she could help with procedures, treatments where Stephen could use a third hand... but perhaps also it could be strange to have his knowledge co-opted so completely in that way. Besides, her remaining hand won't be much more effective than his own, no matter how adept she's forced to get with it.
So. A different topic, then.
"What happened to me?" It's no less fraught a subject, but in light of what he thought about death's door, it's the one that's most top-of-mind. "That is, I know that the site became infected. Was it that? An infection that grew out of control? I can't remember much after I first returned to the infirmary."
It’s nice seeing her smile again, bright and excitable. It makes his own expression soften, in both fondness and relief.
Stephen scoots back a little so he’s not quite so close, no longer all up in her business for the examination. “It was, yes,” he says. “If only Volante had finished his experiments, the penicilin would have helped a great deal. But without any actual antibiotics yet… we’ve nothing to combat an infection effectively.”
He hesitates over the next point. He doesn’t want her to feel to blame any more than she already does.
“I suspect your bones being crushed by the bookcase also complicated matters. It wasn’t as clean of an amputation as it could’ve been otherwise, in a fully-controlled environment. Your body was worn out, undertaking the recovery and regrowing tissue and fighting the infection alike. Sometimes it’s just too much.”
Stephen scoots back a little so he’s not quite so close, no longer all up in her business for the examination. “It was, yes,” he says. “If only Volante had finished his experiments, the penicilin would have helped a great deal. But without any actual antibiotics yet… we’ve nothing to combat an infection effectively.”
He hesitates over the next point. He doesn’t want her to feel to blame any more than she already does.
“I suspect your bones being crushed by the bookcase also complicated matters. It wasn’t as clean of an amputation as it could’ve been otherwise, in a fully-controlled environment. Your body was worn out, undertaking the recovery and regrowing tissue and fighting the infection alike. Sometimes it’s just too much.”
Edited (typo typo) 2025-07-01 00:17 (UTC)
When Ness initially asks him to show her a place he loves in Thedas, Vanya is at first stymied — not by any reluctance to fulfill the request, but out of true uncertainty where he might show her. The Nevarra City of his childhood has been torn by undead and civil war, and has only just begun to rebuild. The Cumberland circle, still standing and gilded and grand, is complicated for reasons she already knows. Antosha's cabin, if it still exists at all, is either long abandoned or has been taken over by some new inhabitant. Skyhold is an active military base.
It is when he finally has the thought that his most uncomplicated, pleasant memories are of traveling that he lands on the answer. He consults with another griffon rider or two about his ideas for securing a rider with only one arm behind him, refining the choice and placement of knots until he's satisfied. Finally, he tells Ness he's ready to show her his answer, when they can find an afternoon they are both at liberty. (He also sacrifices part of the surprise by ensuring she has no fear of heights and asking her to meet him in the Gallows eyrie.)
[ty for your patience, lmk if you need any adjustments!]
It is when he finally has the thought that his most uncomplicated, pleasant memories are of traveling that he lands on the answer. He consults with another griffon rider or two about his ideas for securing a rider with only one arm behind him, refining the choice and placement of knots until he's satisfied. Finally, he tells Ness he's ready to show her his answer, when they can find an afternoon they are both at liberty. (He also sacrifices part of the surprise by ensuring she has no fear of heights and asking her to meet him in the Gallows eyrie.)
[ty for your patience, lmk if you need any adjustments!]
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